Pregnancy after loss can outwardly look beautiful and exciting, but inwardly feel like conflicted grief, uncertainty, fear, anxiety, confusion, guilt, holding your breath, fear of celebrating, fear of hope, constant worry, illegitimacy, and self hatred of one’s own body.

Pregnancy after loss can outwardly look beautiful and exciting, but inwardly feel like conflicted grief, uncertainty, fear, anxiety, confusion, guilt, holding your breath, fear of celebrating, fear of hope, constant worry, illegitimacy, and self hatred of one’s own body.

As the week comes to a close, try as I might to be present, the TO DO list just stretches longer into infinity. So often as a mother, it’s easy to disappear into your children and forget about your “self”: the woman underneath all the endless laundry, bills, paperwork, meals, snacks, work, and more snacks. […]

As the week comes to a close, try as I might to be present, the TO DO list just stretches longer into infinity. So often as a mother, it’s easy to disappear into your children and forget about your “self”: the woman underneath all the endless laundry, bills, paperwork, meals, snacks, work, and more snacks. […]

Tiffany Chi Photography | Fine Art Natural Light Maternity, Baby, Birth, Newborn Photographer Orange County, California “I don’t want to grow up, mommy,” she whispered, breathlessly choking back the tears that came like torrential waves. I found her sitting on the stairs, back hunched, her entire little face buried in her shaking hands. Beside her […]

Tiffany Chi Photography | Fine Art Natural Light Maternity, Baby, Birth, Newborn Photographer Orange County, California “I don’t want to grow up, mommy,” she whispered, breathlessly choking back the tears that came like torrential waves. I found her sitting on the stairs, back hunched, her entire little face buried in her shaking hands. Beside her […]

Do you sometimes feel like the family historian?It me. I find it so fascinating that we now have so much technology at our disposal to personally record and document our lives and our children’s lives. These days your entire family history can live on your phone: a recording device you carry around with you that’s […]

Do you sometimes feel like the family historian?It me. I find it so fascinating that we now have so much technology at our disposal to personally record and document our lives and our children’s lives. These days your entire family history can live on your phone: a recording device you carry around with you that’s […]

We have entirely cut out the body from our process of being human. People rarely think about their bodies. And if they do, it’s usually for one of two reasons:One, they’re comparing it usually to some other piece of body somewhere in the world (to which it usually unfavorably stacks up) Or Two, they are […]

We have entirely cut out the body from our process of being human. People rarely think about their bodies. And if they do, it’s usually for one of two reasons:One, they’re comparing it usually to some other piece of body somewhere in the world (to which it usually unfavorably stacks up) Or Two, they are […]

Last month was the end of a chapter for me and Ellias, and I didn’t know how to process or talk about it until now. My last day breastfeeding Ellias was at 23.5 months. This image was taken a couple of weeks prior to our last days of nursing and unearths so many emotions in […]

Last month was the end of a chapter for me and Ellias, and I didn’t know how to process or talk about it until now. My last day breastfeeding Ellias was at 23.5 months. This image was taken a couple of weeks prior to our last days of nursing and unearths so many emotions in […]

Sometimes I catch myself being withholding of my love and praise for my children. I know it sounds kind of horrible. The truth is … it comes from a deeply ingrained and treacherous lie that if I offer too much love or praise that it will somehow inflate their egos to the point of making […]

Sometimes I catch myself being withholding of my love and praise for my children. I know it sounds kind of horrible. The truth is … it comes from a deeply ingrained and treacherous lie that if I offer too much love or praise that it will somehow inflate their egos to the point of making […]

The room was dark, save for the slivers of light from the hallway peeking underneath the heavy curtain.  I heard mouse clicks and the clacking of keyboards in-between the hum of the air conditioner and the sound of my shaky breath.  But otherwise, just silence, and the reverberating of sound from the monitor.  A heartbeat.  […]

The room was dark, save for the slivers of light from the hallway peeking underneath the heavy curtain.  I heard mouse clicks and the clacking of keyboards in-between the hum of the air conditioner and the sound of my shaky breath.  But otherwise, just silence, and the reverberating of sound from the monitor.  A heartbeat.  […]

I have been battling a serious hair loss sitch the last couple of years. No one told me that after you have children you start to bald. Day after day the dark strands I’ve known all my life slowly transition to silver, and fall to the ground, much to my vacuum’s chagrin. The bags under […]

I have been battling a serious hair loss sitch the last couple of years. No one told me that after you have children you start to bald. Day after day the dark strands I’ve known all my life slowly transition to silver, and fall to the ground, much to my vacuum’s chagrin. The bags under […]

It never ceases to amaze me to think about how thoughtfully and purposefully we are created … In their first year, a baby gains an average of about 8 ounces each month and grows an average of about 1/2 inch each month. I tell myself all the time that I will never forget the way […]

It never ceases to amaze me to think about how thoughtfully and purposefully we are created … In their first year, a baby gains an average of about 8 ounces each month and grows an average of about 1/2 inch each month. I tell myself all the time that I will never forget the way […]